uncomplete story

whoa! its been ages since i wrote on my blog..

but.. what the hell..

thing have gotten worse lately..

i mean.. right now,, i have lots of issues! haha :)

but who cares~ i mean,, i care. if i dont then i wouldnt be my issues right?

but still.. its been the old boring crazy happy me.. :)

always smiles on the outside. haha :)

i can even laugh when i cry. how cool is that? hee~

soo...what do you wanna know first?

my sister's story? or mine?

well.. before i tell you the story. there's sumthin that you should know,

i dont fight for boys, dont argue for boys, n will never ever sacrifice my friendship for boys.

so here goes the story..

currently. i had this highschool crush on a boy.

and, whats worse.. he's nice... i mean. real nice!~ :)

i can even talk to him like a friend.

its really hard for me to talk to a boy like a friend you know.

but of course. i wasnt expecting anything from him.

since i know he already hav a gf that he loves.

n technically. her gf had just become my friend, a few days ago i guess..

so, that makes it worse cz *i wont sacrifice my friendship for boys*

things were going well before that.. n before she became my friend.

not that when she become my friend she changes everything, no..

its just as a timeline. hahah :))

well.. we texted n talk n it was nice.. at least i liked it.

haha :) well, he just makes me feels better.

just as a friend. hahah. and then. suddenly..this one day......

he told me. that we cant text each other anymore.

because his brother keep complaining and his gf wont allow him n he had promised her.

so i was kinda pissed act. but.. i'm not really good at showing it i guess..

haha..n i was like. fine. wtv. its your decision. as long as you're happy, etc.

truthfully. i was really pissed off. it was a heartbreak though.

i mean. he was my friend right. a real good friend of mine.

i would really like to continue as friends.

i really hate losing friends u know,~

so..its over, although he says that, we can be friends, meet, talk and all those.

just not text and call, but its hard to be friends when you cant even text.

seriously...then~ the first day was hard.

i cant even look at my phone. n i didnt reply some of my friends msg, sorry.

n didnt even pick up their calls. sorry again. the phone was not with me,

haha.. i feel like crying but NO. i have to be tough, haha,

but it does hurt to just like suddenly stop like that.

then the next day. i hav to follow them, including him.

to genting. her gf was there, no offence, i dont care,

haha, but i was bored, because, its not like that i wanted to come,

its i have to come. so....wtv, i was kinda alone though. how boring~ my legs ache!

walk to much, alone, n non stop, haha :)

we did talk to each other. i did try to act normal,

so, its normal. and that night was when i started to be friends with her, *his gf*

cz they got into a fight n..........it was hard.

trying to be friends with both. i dont even know who to walk with.

n who to really talk with. but i utamekn perempuanlah. haha.

adoii!~ then the next day she texted me n we've been friends till now.

you can even say good friends, its complicated and hard.

try to be in my place. you're being a really good friend with your crush's gf.

and the person that wont allow him to text me even as a friend.

its quite in-the-box-thought you know.

haha :) anyway. i still misses him and i'm texting his gf 24/7 :)

haha..i'm screwed! i'm lost!i dont even know what i'm doing.

and her gf knows that i misses him and all those,

but i think she just cant accept me being her bf's friend.

which i still cant understand why.. i mean. WHY?

haha, but its ok. i dont wanna think about it anymore.

my job is to be a good friend to everyone.

i dont really care bout myself anymore,

who cares what i feel. haha..it's just me :) the invisible me..

btw, *he* , nice being friends with you. it was nice knowing you, n thx 4 everything, dont know if we're still gonna be friends. but i hope we can text on the day before i go back to school. there's just too many things that i wanna tell you! haha :)

*she* i'm still your friend :) dont worry too much bout me. ily as much as you luv me :) sorry for everything. disturbing your life or wtv. haha. good to know that u really wanna be friends with me :) stay friends n remember *i dont argue for boys* cz u almost argue with me because of him. haha

lbnl. i dont know what to do right now.

cz i'm so lost.