life's suffering me!

sorry,
but i'm too tired for all this,
too tired to wipe the tears,
too tired to get my heartbroken,
too tired to even watch.
i thought you knew me.
but i was wrong.
i'm sorry for expecting more than i should,
but i am really disapointed.
in me and both of you.
thanks for everything but i've had enough already.
i love you more than i love myself,
i swear, i would even risk my life for you.
but this is what you repay me,
thank you, sincerely from me.
but i want no more.
i'll start over next year.
we'll see what happen.
i'll try to make it work though i know its quite impossible.
i have faith in you,
and i believe in everything you do.
n i beg you,
dont suffer me anymore.
trusting you is the only thing i have right now.
and the only thing i am doing.
please dont change.
please dont go.
please dont leave.
stay with me.
losing you had been the worst thing ever happened to me.
WORST!
sorry for everything i've done
i've never meant to hurt you or anyone.
the pain will never go away.
the wound will never heal.
the scar will always stay.
watching you so far away.
i wish you all the happiness you can get.
sorry for being such a jerk.
remember, how i look on the outside is not what i feel on the inside.
i hope they do take great care of you.
anyone who wanna hurt you have to go through me first keyh.
do take care coz you're the only one i care for.

i love you now, always and forever.
i wish i could turn back the time.
but we both know. its too late.

forgive me..